FEELING OF LOVE Dosto ap sab ki zindagi me kabhi na kabhi koi aisa insan aaya hoga jiske aane se apki dunia me ek roshani si aayi hogi, jisaki khubsuarti ke aage dunia ki sari khusbsuarat cheeje bhi fiki lagti hongi, jiski ek muskurahat ke liye hum kuch bhi karne ko taiyar ho jayenge, jisase milkar humne jana hoga ki zindagi kitni khubsurat hai, jisko paane ke baad jisase milne ke baad hume aisa mehsoos ho mano humane sab kuch paa liya ho aur ab kisi se milane ka intazar nahi…… Aur agar aap abhi tak aise kisi shaks se nahi mile hai to bas intazaar kijiye kyunki har kisi ke liye bhagwan ne kahi na kahi ek khass insan banaya hota hai jisase milane ke baad na kisi se milane ki khwaish rahti hai aur jisko pane ke baad na aur kuch pane ki ikchha rahti hai…
Main aj aapko apne zindagi ke ek aise hi shaks ke bare me batana chahti hu jisase milkar mano maine sab kuch paa liya hai. Usase milkar maine jaana ki pyar kya hota hai…par pyar kyu hota hai ye main aaj tak nahi jaan payi…par usase pyar karke maine ye to jaan liya ki pyar jab bhi hota hai, jisase bhi hota hai apko sahi maeeno me jeena sikha deta hai, aur pyar se khoobsurat shayad aur koi ehsaas is dunia me nahi hai…phir chahe wo kisi bhi rishte ka pyar ho…kyuki pyar to bas pyara hota hai bas har rishte ke saath usko mehsoos karne ka ehsaas badal jata hai….to chaliye aaj main apko apne pyar “G” ke bare me batane ja rahi hu jisaki shuruaat kuch is tarah huyi….
Ye baat aaj se 5 years before ki hai. Wo 2014 ka samay tha aur main apne 12th ke final exams ke baad apne hometown gayi thi to attend my cousins marriage and there I saw “G” for the first time after two years. He was stteping down to stairs and I was going up and our eyes met aur maine use ek usual sa hiii kiya and asked how are you “G”? and he said fine and went. Usaka ghar hamare ghar se thodi duri par hai aur hamari family kafi ache friends hai so I know him since my childhood but alwys saw him as my family friend. And hamare ghar ke har function me we invite them and they too. Par ab use itne saalo ke baad dekha aur ek hi pal me meri sari feelings usake liye badal gayi thi. He was no more a family friend to me but he was a special one for me now. Na jane aisa kya jadu kiya usane mujh par ki main har pal use sochane lagi thi…bas har pal use apne karib dekhna chahti thi.
Jaise jaise din beet rahe the waise waise mere dil me uske liye feelings aur badati ja rahi thi…mujhe is baat ka zara bhi ehsaas nahi tha ki ye kaun sa ehsaas hai…but jo bhi tha mujhe bahut achha lag raha tha. Har dhalte suraj ke saath aur har ugate suraj ke saath main use aur sirf use har ek pal apni ankho ke samane dekhana chahti thi. Wo ek pal ke liye bhi agar meri ankho se ojhal hota tha to main use dekhane ke liye bechain ho jati thi. Aur jab use dekhati thi to ek sukoon sa mehsoos hota tha mano maine kuch khoyi hui cheej pa li ho. Ye silsila yu hi chalta raha aur phir shadi wale din sab taiyar ho rahe the mere cousins aur main, aur tabhi wo(“G”) aaya…ek dam ready hokar and said “PARI” tum ready ho gayi and I was so happy coz he talked to me I said yes and we all got ready to go. Main aur “G” ek hi gaadi me baithe the with my some other cousins aur sare raaste main bas use dekhate huye gayi…shaadi me hamane khoob enjoy kia coz my cousins are almost of my age and “G” too is of my age and next day we returned. Now main aur “G” thoda baat karne lage the and days went happily and mere wapas jane ka waqt aa gaya, apne city to get admission in college.
Aur mere na chahte huye bhi meri ankho me aansu aa gaye sirf ye soch kar ki ab pata nahi main kab “G” se milungi. Aur jane wale din he holded my hands and said bye “PARI” aur mujhe laga jaise mujhse kuch chhut raha, kuch aisa jisake bina main jee nahi paungi, mano andar hi andar kuch toot raha ho. I just felt to leave everything and stay with him. But mujhe pata tha aisa nahi ho sakta aur mujhe jana hi hoga and I went. And then I came to my home where actually I lived. Sab kuch pehale ke jaisa tha, wahi ghar, wahi mahaul, wahi gadiyo ka shor. Par ek cheej jo badal gayi thi…wo thi main. Main use har pal yaad karne lagi thi, jo karti, jaha jati uski yaade mujhe yaad aati. Uske sath bitaye har lamahe mano mere ankho ke samane chal rahe ho, uska chehra, uski muskurahat, uski baatein sab mujhse bhulaye nahi bhul rahe the. Kisine sach hi kaha hai jitna ham kisi ko bhulane ki koshish karte hai wo hume utane hi yaad aane lagate hai, aur yahi haal mera bhi tha main “G” ko jitna bhoolane ki koshish karti wo mujhe utana hi jyada yaad aane laga tha. Main samajh nahi paa rahi thi ki main kya karu…har pal bas ek hi khayal dil me aata ki phir kab usase milungi, ya pata nahi kabhi mil bhi paungi ya nahi. Main usase milane ke liye, use dekhane ke liye har pal tadapane lagi thi par use nahi dekh pati thi. Kabhi lagata ki usane mujhe aawaj di ho, par dusare hi pal ye ehsaas hota ki ye bas mere sapane hai. Main har pal bhagwan se dua mangati ki…hey bhagwan pls mujhe “G” se mila do bas ek baar…par koi fayada na hua. Lekin ek din mano bhagwan ne meri sun li aur usake parents ka phone aaya…unhone mere parents ko bataya ki wo chahte hai ki “G” ka bhi admission hamare hi shehar me krwa dia jaye aur isliye ab “G” yahi ayega. Mere parents ne jab mujhe ye baat batayi to main to khushi se pagal ho gayi. Mujhe kuch samajh nahi aa raha tha ki main kya kar du,
main ab bas ek ek din usake aane ke intazar me bita rahi thi ki kab wo ayega, kab main use dekhungi, usase baat karungi. Aur phir wo…..aaya mere dil ka sukun, mere chehare ki raunak aur mera sab kuch. He is a tall wheat coloured boy with black eyes and a face that can take many hearts, and he was wearing a green short kurta with cargo. Use dekhate hi ek pal ke liye meri dhadkane ruk gayi thi. Wo bahut thak gaya tha so he just had his dinner and went to sleep. Par use kya khabar thi ki usko dekh kar maine apni neend kho di hai. Main ab har roj use sote hue dekhati thi aur us waqt wo aisa lagta tha mano koi farishta dharti pe utar aaya ho, ek dam masum, pyara aur bhola. Ye ab roj ka mera kaam ho gaya tha wo jab bhi so jata main usake paas jake usko dekhati rahati aur jab mujhe lagata koi dekh lega main jake so jati. Mere college start ho gaye the isliye mujhe ab roj college jana padata tha and uska abhi college start hone me time tha so he used to be at home. Main college over hone pe jaldi se jaldi ghar aati kyunki usko dekhane ke liye main bechain rahti aur ghar pahuch kar main usase baat karti…not much coz we never talked to each other but later ham frank ho gaye aur ab to main usase itna bolti thi ki wo kabhi kabhi pareshan ho jata tha. I used to tease him and he too never missed any chance to pull my legs. Ham ek dusare ki company bahut enjoy karne lage.
Ek din mere parents and other member went out and just we both were at home. I was as usual talking with him and then I went for studying. I was studying when he entered in my room and kept seeing me…I didn’t notice him seeing me continuously and suddenly I saw him and he immediately turned his face and went. I felt like what happened to him, but then I thought its just a coincidence that we saw each other at the same time. And I started studying again. And this time he came into my room and sat next to me…and asked G:- what are you studying? ME:- nothing just seeing some important topics G:- I have something to say ME:- ya say dear…why are you hesitating G:- Pari…..i…. ME:- what ?? i…?? say it G:- Pari I think I am falling in love with you Hearing those words from his mouth I felt like am in heaven. It felt sooo good to my ears that it can’t be expressed in words. I couldn’t believe that really he proposed me. I felt like am day dreaming but he holded my hands and said yes dear its true am falling in love with you. And he waited for my answer And I said YES I do, and I love you since I saw you first time stepping down to stairs. He looked surprisingly into my eyes and said G:- what….are you serious??? ME:- yes “G” I fell in love with you at first sight. G:- then why didn’t you let me know about it?? ME:- I wasn’t sure about my feeling He just smiled and said pari…you are really a dambo. For all these days whatever you felt for me is love dear. And we both smiled and he just gave me warm hug and kissed me on my forehead. And said PARI I LOVE YOU and I said I LOVE YOU TOO “G” To be contd…..
WRITTEN BY-PARI This is my true love story friends. And its first time I wrote any story so kindly send me your comments.