Confusion

Excerpt: We started hanging out together daily. We went on dates and one day he proposed me in a very special and beautiful way.

It is the time when everyone passed his or her 12th standard. It is a turning point for everybody in career as well as love. Many relationships get apart because of the thought of the distance and some just casually break up but here, I am in love with somebody.

We started our relationship so causally on the note that we will never going to get serious about each other but that time who knows what will happen in future.

Our relationship started in 11th’s summer break. Summer breaks is the time when you don’t have things to do. It’s just time to rest, enjoy and family trips. I was having rest because my family did not go to any trip and there are some more people who are resting because there family also does not went anywhere. So we start meeting each other daily. There is this guy from whom I was getting attention. Also I just had break up a month ago and the guy also had break up some months ago. So we started bonding. The bonding was really good.

We started hanging out together daily. We went on dates and one day he proposed me in a very special and beautiful way. We were sitting in front of Jal Mahal and it’s 5AM and it was rainy season so the view, the air, the moment and everything were mesmerizing. He proposed ,I said yes. There were lots and lots of moments, which we spent together. We started sharing the top secret of our lives to each other and we realized that our life is really complicated. We decided that we would only make each other happy because there are many more things, which easily can upset us.

Biggest problem of Indian relationships is we ends it by saying there is no future of our relationship as our family will not going to accept us. It’s good to thought about future but seriously why, at least first see if your relationship will go to that extent or not. Yeah so, we passed our 12th and I don’t know fortunately or unfortunately but our course and college will be same but I asked him what happened, he replied “I am confused, Now as we …

Namak Ka Daroga Kahani

Namak Ka Daroga – Munshi Premchand

जब नमक का नया विभाग बना और ईश्वरप्रदत्त वस्तु के व्यवहार करने का निषेध हो गया तो लोग चोरी-छिपे इसका व्यापार करने लगे। अनेक प्रकार के छल-प्रपंचों का सूत्रपात हुआ, कोई घूस से काम निकालता था, कोई चालाकी से। अधिकारियों के पौ-बारह थे। पटवारीगिरी का सर्वसम्मानित पद छोड-छोडकर लोग इस विभाग की बरकंदाजी करते थे। इसके दारोगा पद के लिए तो वकीलों का भी जी ललचाता था।

यह वह समय था जब अंगरेजी शिक्षा और ईसाई मत को लोग एक ही वस्तु समझते थे। फारसी का प्राबल्य था। प्रेम की कथाएँ और शृंगार रस के काव्य पढकर फारसीदाँ लोग सर्वोच्च पदों पर नियुक्त हो जाया करते थे।

मुंशी वंशीधर भी जुलेखा की विरह-कथा समाप्त करके सीरी और फरहाद के प्रेम-वृत्तांत को नल और नील की लडाई और अमेरिका के आविष्कार से अधिक महत्व की बातें समझते हुए रोजगार की खोज में निकले।

उनके पिता एक अनुभवी पुरुष थे। समझाने लगे, ‘बेटा! घर की दुर्दशा देख रहे हो। ॠण के बोझ से दबे हुए हैं। लडकियाँ हैं, वे घास-फूस की तरह बढती चली जाती हैं। मैं कगारे पर का वृक्ष हो रहा हूँ, न मालूम कब गिर पडूँ! अब तुम्हीं घर के मालिक-मुख्तार हो।

‘नौकरी में ओहदे की ओर ध्यान मत देना, यह तो पीर का मजार है। निगाह चढावे और चादर पर रखनी चाहिए। ऐसा काम ढूँढना जहाँ कुछ ऊपरी आय हो। मासिक वेतन तो पूर्णमासी का चाँद है, जो एक दिन दिखाई देता है और घटते-घटते लुप्त हो जाता है। ऊपरी आय बहता हुआ स्रोत है जिससे सदैव प्यास बुझती है। वेतन मनुष्य देता है, इसी से उसमें वृध्दि नहीं होती। ऊपरी आमदनी ईश्वर देता है, इसी से उसकी बरकत होती हैं, तुम स्वयं विद्वान हो, तुम्हें क्या समझाऊँ।

‘इस विषय में विवेक की बडी आवश्यकता है। मनुष्य को देखो, उसकी आवश्यकता को देखो और अवसर को देखो, उसके उपरांत जो उचित समझो, करो। गरजवाले आदमी के साथ कठोरता करने में लाभ ही लाभ है। लेकिन बेगरज को दाँव पर पाना जरा कठिन है। इन बातों को निगाह में बाँध लो यह मेरी जन्म भर की कमाई है।

इस उपदेश के बाद पिताजी ने आशीर्वाद दिया। वंशीधर आज्ञाकारी पुत्र थे। ये बातें ध्यान से सुनीं और तब घर से चल खडे हुए। इस विस्तृत संसार में उनके लिए धैर्य अपना मित्र, बुध्दि अपनी पथप्रदर्शक और आत्मावलम्बन ही अपना सहायक था। लेकिन अच्छे शकुन से चले थे, जाते ही जाते नमक विभाग के दारोगा …

The Uncertainty

Excerpt: Where the old relations were getting loosen enough, she was getting bonded with Ariyan more and more.

People say time changes people, or in reality, times can show us the real face or nature of people. Ipshita is very practical and can accept the changes in people with time. Time was changing, equations of her life were also changing with the change of time. Raj and she met rarely nowadays. Raj is very happy and excited to start his new life where there is no more fear of losing Ipshita.

Anisha and Meenakshi were also about to finish their graduate studies and only 3-4 months are remaining of their togetherness. Though like all others Ipshita and her soul sisters were promising to be together forever. Somehow Ipshita knew there was a change between Anisha and Meenakshi’s connection which will make the bonding loose and may be faded away.

Raj already has gone mentally before his actual farewell from the city, now he doesn’t call or message frequently. Ipshita is still trying to be well connected to Raj, but Raj seems quite destructed and pulled away from her. She was not happy about this matter she started feeling lonely even in the crowd. Sometimes she feels less connected to Anisha and Meenakshi also nowadays. She is trying her best to keep her stable and to keep everyone together. She knows everything going to change soon drastically. Her friends her comfort zone is at the edge of their bonding.

Where the old relations were getting loosen enough, she was getting bonded with Ariyan more and more. All her loneliness and wishes were getting fulfilled by Ariyan. Ariyan started knowing her little better than before. He is getting attached to her day by day, this bonding was amazing platonic connections, which can only be felt. They like each other’s company they keep talking for hours after office.

She felt tremendous happiness but fear inside if she has to give up on this closeness also means. Where she will go, who will listen to her and give her a safe hand to ride throughout her path. 2 more months remained and after this, she doesn’t know who will be there with her Raj or Ariyan??

“The present is the best present you can give to anyone”, Ipshita uttered to Ariyan.

She was lost about the future thought of losing Ariyan forever. After the

Back to start

Excerpt: The story has just begun and now I know if it is not love then it also not friendship. May be in between some where.

I never thought in my whole teenage life that I would ever experience that thing ,the thing which people at my age call love. I always felt that teenage people can get attracted to a person but love is big word. I mean although it is a four letter word but the hindi cinema and society makes it a big deal . Well it was not that big , I mean you never invite Love, you feel it.

After my school life , I was left with one year to find my passion and study for entrance exam . Studying all day made me bored so I used to go to this park side near my house . As I was literally in my last teenage years so I was willing to explore all new stuff .

One day I saw this guy looking at me from far away , I thought may be he wanted to say something . But he went away . Next day on my way to park in the morning , I heard the sound of cycle behind me . It was strange because normally people come by foot . So I turned my head and saw this guy with the uniform of some college I guess with wet hair and a bag on back . He started cycling with my speed and asked me my name and as kind of formality I asked his. He actually wanted my physics copy for notes as he heard from some people that I was preparing and so was he for the entrance exam.

Well when a guy with a cute smile asks you that or want something how can you say no. In the evening I gave him my copy and with that my heart . Now every morning was a happy morning for me as I used to see him . For the first time I was so open to a boy who was just my friend. For the next six months we met in the roads , in parks , in coaching classes but never shared phone number .

He was a gentle man , when in winter the morning used to be a little dark he used to

The Power of Destiny!

As I walked home on a hot scorching day in Delhi, I stumbled on a wallet that someone had dropped accidentally in the street. Immediately I bent down; picked it up; opened it; and looked inside to find some sort of identification which would help me trace its owner. But the wallet contained only 3-one rupee notes and a crumpled letter that appeared to have been there for several years.

The envelope was tattered and all that was legible was the return address. I opened the letter hoping to find some clue of the receiver and the sender. The date on which the letter was written was marked as 13.12. 1957- Yes it was written about 60 years ago.

The beautiful hand writing appeared to be that of a lady and it was written on a pink stationary paper with a small flower on the right-hand corner. It read ‘Dearest Anurag’ that told the recipient that  the writer was not in a position to see him any more as her mother was totally against their love affair and forbade her from meeting him anymore. .  She continued to write that her love for him was eternal and hence wrote this letter without the knowledge of her mother. It bore the signature of the letter as Preeti.

It was a lovely letter, but other than the name Preeti there was no other way by which the owner could be identified. Probably if I could contact the telephone operator in the Telephone exchange, that person may be able to help me with the phone listing of the return address, if the address is still traceable after 60 long years!  It was just a chance, which I was taking!  

I dialled the telephone exchange and on hearing a lady’s voice, “Madam, Good morning! I have a very unusual request and hope you will be able to help me with it.”.

“Yes Good morning, go ahead please”.  

I began, “I am trying to locate the owner of a wallet which I found on the roadside. Would you be able to tell me whether there is a telephone number for the address that is written on the envelope?”She urged me to speak to her boss who would be in a better position to help me out on this matter, who, after a minute’s hesitation, ‘Well, we do have a phone listing at the address specified …

Love forever – Ateet ka Parinda – 1

वो शाम फ़िर तन्हा ना होना था…मगर तन्हाई बोलकर थोड़े ही आती है
जब याद आती है तब ही तन्हा होता हूँ और जब भी तन्हा होता हूँ वो ही याद आती है शाम के ५;३० बजे, नवंबर ११,२००८
ऐसा लगता है अब वो समझ चुकी है मेरे मन की बात….ना कुछ बोल रही है ना कुछ सुन रही है
ख़ामोशी अगर सब कुछ ना बयां करे नज़रें सब कुछ बोल देती हैं
चुप रहना काँटों की तरह चुभ रहा था, मगर बोल भी नहीं सका क्योंकि जुबान लड़खड़ा रहे थे
ना उसने कुछ कहा ना मैंने कुछ सुना, मगर दिल की आवाज़ सीधा दिल पे लगती है
आज ऐसा क्यों लग रहा था की सब कुछ झूठा था, प्यार तो झूठे थे ही जस्बात भी झूठे थे, आरजू झूठी थी तमन्ना झूठी थी
ना उसने समझा मेरे जूनून को, ना मैंने जाना उसके शुकुन को
घंटों निकल गए मगर दो बोल ना बोल सके हम, सिसकियाँ निकलती रही और हमें छोड़ गए सनम दोपहर ३ बजे….जुलाई १६,२०१६
कम्बख्त बारिश को भी अभी आना था….ना छाता ना छुपने की जगह….
एक तो पहले ही लेट हूँ ऊपर से बारिश
चलो थोड़ा दौड़कर ही सही, ये बस स्टॉप बचा लेगी मुझे अरे मैडम क्या कर रही हैं….संभल के! वो तो संभाल गयी मगर मैं नहीं संभाल सका खुद को….
सब कुछ निकल गया अतीत के पन्नों को टटोलकर बस एक घटके में
वो सहमी, देखा और फिर से सहम गयी….
मानो उसे करंट छूकर निकल गयी हो और फिर भी झटके हज़ार दे गयी हो नज़रें हैरान थी, निगाहें परेशान थी….दिल कह रहा था पूछ लूँ सब कुछ….
खैरियत से रुख़्साने तक….तन्हाईयों से फ़साने तक…. भरोसा नहीं हो रहा था ये वही है जिसके साथ जिंदगी साथ गुजरने की कसमें खायीं थीं…. ऐसा लग रहा था जैसे कल की ही बात हो…. नहीं राहुल तुम कभी पैसे की अहमियत नहीं समझ पाए….मुझे उधार की जिंदगी नहीं चाहिए
प्यार तो मैं तुम्हे खुद से भी ज्यादा करती हूँ मगर सिर्फ प्यार से जिंदगी नहीं चलती न
मैं तुम्हारे साथ जिंदगी गुजार सकती हूँ मगर तुम ही बताओ बिना पैसे के जिंदगी कैसी? मुझे पता है तुम मुझे खुश रखोगे मगर मुझे जिंदगी में और भी बहुत कुछ चाहिए राहुल….
एक ही जिंदगी है , मैं अभाव में नहीं बिताना चाहती…. दोपहर ३:१५ बजे….जुलाई १६,२०१६ मम्मा मैं आ गई…
अरे बेटा रुको, क्या कर रही हो, भींग जाओगी…..ऐसे नहीं बेटा!
मम्मा पप्पा कहाँ …

The Unexpected

Ipshita, an ambitious girl who is looking for growth, betterment, and true love. She joined recently in a small developing company with a good package. She loves to give a challenge to every arena of her life and to get expertise in most possible areas. Until then her life was going well, she had a few good friends, a good job and a decent lifestyle, lovable and frank parents and most importantly a supportive younger brother. She was very popular among everyone always for her sense of humor and attractive personality. She was doing well in every aspect of her life but continued to expect her dream man and the love and future partner of her life.

First-day:

It was her first day in the new office and she reported on time and started working on joining formalities. Post of this joining stuff she has been forwarded to her department, now its time for her to explore new people. She met her new team and boss, she met a few of her colleagues and co-workers also still a lot to continue. Her new office colleagues seemed to be quite open-minded and friendly to her, which matches her personality. Overall the first day went well apart from the fact that she might not remember her way home.

chat mania:

It is Saturday the first weekend of her new job. Ipshita doesn’t have any plans yet. Just like other weekends she wakes up a little late and continued to carry on with her weekend routines with friend cum roomies. Once she switched on the data pack apart from her routine good morning wishes, her mobile screen pops up with 6-7 messages from a new contact. It seems to be a senior from her new office, who stayed more nearest to her location. Unlikely the fact that she is a little bit reserved and doesn’t like to entertain unknown people much, she was very enthusiastic and happy to receive messages from him. That day up to evening Ipshita and her senior Ariyan chatted a lot. She started knowing him, but so surprised by the fact that how in that much short period he felt to share his stuff with her.

Its been 2 weeks already passed, she has been quite adjusted with her new office and the working environment. She made few friends too. She is happy about this new bonding, with her

Unanswered Questions

Rosa Magdalina looked straight into her reflection in the golden lit mirror in front of her, she placed some crimson lipstick on with more intensity than necessary, the drying pink roses in the vase next to her softened the drama a touch, but i’m sure even they felt the intensity in her demeanor. She turned and left into the softly lit streets of Paris. Clutching her purse, in which lay a train ticket, a love note of the boy who would never know where she left to, a photo of a little girl, her sister, who now would be a fine young lady, probably married with children. Although Rosa would never know.

Her heels make a soft clicking sound on the cobbled streets as she walks, it’s hauntingly quiet tonight, a tear stains her cheek. She clutches her purse tighter, turns down the street to the train station and never looks.

7:00am

Andre awoke, the bed was cold, the room was quiet, a soft dampening, drowning panic hit when he saw a note in place of Rosa. He didn’t want to read it, he knew it would break his heart. That beautiful girl, with untold stories in her eyes, he knew she had left. 

He felt the signs yesterday, she hadn’t said anything to let on. But there was an urgency in the way she kissed him… like it was a goodbye. There was a sadness in the way she had looked at him. And a unsettledness about her as they lay in bed.. But he pushed that feeling away and fell asleep. Hoping he’d wake up and she would be normal, making pancakes in the kitchen, hot coffee already made…

But no. Nothing but empty silence.

He should have kissed her longer, told her how he loved her, held her in his arms and begged her to tell him her troubles..

But here he is; alone in the empty silence filled with unanswered questions.

He drank the half glass of red wine left on her nightstand. He sadly didn’t have the heart to convince himself that perhaps she’d return sometime… or ever. He knew all too well, a girl like Rosa, with so many untold stories in her eyes, wasn’t the type…

He places the note in a box of precious things. He’ll read it some other time, some time in the future when the love they had shared …

By my soul

Never did you tried nor did I

To express how I felt for you time to time

But if I find you now I might say these words to you

Do listen to me , for it is just for you

Times when I see you are the times that I miss

To feel like what I always wanted to feel

Your black shiny hair and blush on the top

Smile on your face and dimples by your cheeks

Shine on the face and six fingers on your wrist

Are the memories I have till I forget how to breathe

Loud are my feelings though it never reach to you

But it’s just mine and will rest by my soul

If you ever see this you will know who am I

The girl who always loved you and gave you shoulder when you cried

The story will live ,I may not

For the blink in your eyes

I could see no more

The thoughts you have

I can hear no more

Miles apart from me

what you left me for

Seasonal are flowers not my love

Even if you come after years

You will found me the same

They say the love travel distance

What if the destination is not known

They say it takes time

What if my watch is broke

Stories of love that i have heard before

Are they only tales

Or have any truth at all

Romeo and juliet never had a happy ending

In my case it never had a beginning

I met you in some place

I dont remember now

But the depth of your voice

Is like wow

It is a little different

How it is happening

For my love story

Isnt about the queen or the king

Neither it is the story of the princess

For their is no palace

All i see is mess

Time i spend with you

I will always cherish

Sweet as the berries

Long as a hour

But remember they also say

Love never fails

What ever be the depth

It always sails

Thinks about you sometime

Dont cry any more

Memories you gave

I dont want any more

Because love is not greed

It comes to you whenever you need

I might not be any more

But the love that I have will rest by soul

–END–

Tu mujhe chhod jaaye ye nahi ho sakta – Abhishek

Hyy guys mera name abhishek hai aur waise toh mere love aur meri life ka name varsha hao par maine use ek aur name diya hai shanu ab mai start karta ju hamari love story voh age bhut hi zyada kam thi but feelings wahi se start ho gayi thi mai 6th class mai tha jab varsha mere school mai entry leti hai maine use first time dekha tha jab hi se mai use like karne laga tha shayad use kuch bhi pata nahi tha phir 2 saal guzar gaye hum 8th class mai aagaye phir mere classmate ne mai uska name nahi batana chahata hum use tarun name se bulate hai toh usne varsha ke ek freind ko propose kiya aur unka affair chala mai tarun ke saath varsha ke bench ke peeche bhethne laga tarun aur varsha ki freind busy rehete the varsha mera mind khaati reheti thi par mujhe accha lagta tha bcz mai varsha se love karta tha varsha ne bhi love story upload ki thi aisa usme likha tha ki voh bhi mujhse love karti thi par mujhe us time nahi pata tha ki voh mujhse love karti hai par us time mujhe laga ki varsha ka affair hai kisi ke saath maine ye baat janane ki koshish ki shayad voh baat sach bhi thi hum us par baad mai bhi baat karenge

phir hum 9th class mai aagaye shayad varsha ki freind ko pata chal gaya tha ki meri shanu varsha hai aur shayad varsha ko bhi pata lag gaya tha phir tarun ne mujhse bola love letter varsha ko dekar aaja nahi mai dedunga maine tarun ko mana kiya aur usne varsha ko voh letter de diya maine tarun ko bola voh letter faad kar fek de voh letter faad ke fek diya lekin voh letter ke tukde varsha ne uthane ki koshish ki thi par voh puri tarike se fat chuke the par varsha ke haath mai ek tukda aaya tha jisme likha tha shanu mai usse kuch bhi nahi kehena chahta tha kyuki meri voh varsha ke affair waali misunderstanding thi aur jabhi ek aur misunderstanding create ho gayi thi voh hamara senior jo aagaya tha voh 11th mai tha aur shayad voh varsha ko smile deta reheta tha as a senior par vaha bhi mujhe laga ki varsha ka affair chal raha hai mere freinds ko bhi yahi laga phir …